Can I Stop?

Life is really boring, discouraging and frustrating. How can I loss my passion on my life? I have no motivation to do anything. Just minute before, I got to know someone is reading my blog, so I log in and try to write something.

Life has been boring for me. Live everyday the same without my own control. I am told to do everything I need to do. Actually, I think I am a creative and spontaneous person but my environment just do not allow me on this. I am running my life based on schedule. My life schedule is so full, hardly can stop and take a break. Can I stop? I really tire of living like this. I am tried of blogging too.

Valentine Day

Carmen and I went to a shopping mall called Sunway Pyramid near my office to celebrate Valentine Day. Due to limited resources, we wander around for a while for the best deal. We are satisfied in a restaurant called Jack's Place. Carmen has a spaghetti while I have a gilled chicken. We spend RM50 here.

Then we when around looking for wedding band. There are couple of jewellery shop in the shopping mall. One of the shop sell only high end jewellery, one of the shop sell very cheap. Even though Carmen and I are first time jewellery buyer, we can see some minor defeat on the ring. The funny moment is when we want to get off, we have another 10% discount. We doubt, and we get off. Then we settle with one of the shop, we left out contact because the ring we prefer do not suit our finger size. They need to make order for that.

Wish you Happy Valentine Day.

Life Goes On

I am trying out Microsoft .Net Framework 2.0, Visual Web Developer 2005 Express Edition, and Microsoft SQL Server 2005 Express Edition with my 2.0 mHz, 512 MB RAM, Windows XP Home edition laptop. It is running slow. I have no resources to upgrade my device.

I am getting marriage 2nd June 2007. I want to buy a memorable ring for my wife. I want to take memorable photography for our marriage. I want to have a nice and affordable honeymoon. I want to spend a memorable wedding ceremony for my wife as well as for our friends and relatives. I can only use credit card and pay back later.

I am trying to budget everything but it does seem to work too well. Anyway, life goes on. I learned that zero saving happen to most of the people even after thirty. This surprise me. I guess my life is not the worst though. Anyhow, life goes on. Choices become lesser and lesser when time goes on. I suddenly realize that human being does not actually have freedom. We are allowed to do certain things constrained by our environment. I haven't really make a choice for a long time already. Life just goes on its way like a film and I am the actor.