The Harden Heart

Today is another Sunday. It has been month since I last ponder of God's word. And I have not listen anything from God recently. My heart was occupied by the World such as my job. Instead of reading bible, I am reading comic. Instead of praying, I am watching movie. Instead of pondering and meditate about the Bible, I am worrying about my work.

God used today preacher to talk to me. I read Bible, I know Christianity principle and doctrine. But today preacher challenge to build personal relationship with God. I am not quite there. I do not know why.

There the preacher answer my question. People failed to build relationship with God because people refuse to reveal and deal with own sin. I am definitely a sinner but I do not willing to acknowledge my sin and refuse to receive God's grace. Do not even want to talk about my sin here.

Second, I am running after the World. I am spending all my might, all my strength and all my soul trying to do a better job for better career prospect. I forget all this will fade away eventually.

Tell you what, God used today sermon to call me once more to repent and focus on him instead of the World. I personally felt better now, my worry about my career prospect reduced, bigger part of my mind is occupied by the grace of God now. Literally, I felt better. Praise the Lord.

Isaiah (55:8-11)

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.

"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth:

It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

The Heart of Jonah

It has been another 6 months since my last post. Tomorrow, I will leading praise and worship in my care group of around 15 people, and I am terrifying for 2 months since the roster arranged. My wife is requested by me to replace me to lead praise and worship last time when I was rostered. I did ask for her help this time but she reject my request. I have to do it this time, hopefully this is the first and the last.

I did argue with God that all in the body of Christ (church) function differently to complete the functions of the body of Christ. And apparently I am not functioning as the praise and worship leader. But God tell me that in him I can do all things. Actually, I do not want to do all things, I just wish to do a little bit. Evaluating my church commitment, I am just a church goer and offering giver like everyone else.

Pray that my service will not stumble my brothers and sisters too much. And they will learn from mistake (roster me in the wrong place). Actually, all place is wrong place for me.

(Jonah 1:1-3 The word of the LORD came to Jonah son of Amittai: "Go to the great city of Nineveh and preach against it, because its wickedness has come up before me." But Jonah ran away from the LORD and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for that port. After paying the fare, he went aboard and sailed for Tarshish to flee from the LORD.)