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My friend's father just passed away because of cancer. This triggered me of my father too. My father is the one provides to my need since the first day I came to the world. He does not talk to me much but he is the most influential person in my life. He is a sacrificial father willing to sacrifice himself for the family. He is a faithful husband to my mother. He is a respectful son to my grandparents. He is a loving brother to my uncle and aunt. He is a trustful friend. He is a not so cunning business man. But he is not a christian. He jokingly said, “If heaven is so real, please open the door of heaven when I knock your door.” I have to find a way to open the door even before he is knocking. Suddenly I realize that I myself is actually the door of heaven to my family.
(Matthew 5:19) Jesus did not let him, but said, “Go home to your family and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how he has had mercy on you.”
I do not remember when is the last time I do this, just now I went alone into my room and start mumbling to the air, hoping someone to attend of it. I praise someone because I believe he is going to bring me to heaven one day. Then I start to complaining about everything. At the end I said, “That is alright.” Because I believe it is for my benefit though I do not feel that way. Finally like usual no response, in fact I have not prepare myself for response too because I expect no response. Anyway, I believe someone is receiving my mumbling. This is all of my little faith. It is so small that is likely to disappear anytime.
(Psalm 4:3) Know that the LORD has set apart the godly for himself; the LORD will hear when I call to him.
The initial purpose I start this blog site is to testify God's work in my life. Secondly, I like to record my spiritual journal of my walk with God. But when time went, I found myself emphasize of the number of visit to my site. Everyday, I will check the number of people visited my site. This will bring me some satisfaction. It means people are reading my blog. Then I start to consider putting some advertisement in my blog site to generate a little income for myself. As you can tell eventually my blog site will become a commercial blog site full with advertisement.
Finally I go back to basic, my site is not to gain people attention but to testify God's work. It is not to generate income but to keep record of my spiritual journal. It doesn't matter how many people are reading or nobody is reading. I hope my testimony will help people to go through difficulty as I went through; share my happiness and hope people to help me over my doubt by commenting here.
(Philippians 1:6) being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
My company have moved to a brand new office which is much more better than the old office. I feel exciting to work in the new environment. My desk is bigger and neat. The most important improvement is my desk location which is 5 steps from toilet. I need this because my body digest system is super effective.
Apart, I have to work harder because better environment means better performance to employer. I have to train myself to think like a boss though I am not. The fact is I am lazy to work most of the time. But I have to make some contribution otherwise though my boss do not fire me, I feel boring too.
Other than environment, everything is the same. I am still looking at the same computer screen. I should stop dreaming and get back to work. But the nearer toilet is not a dream!
(1 Thessalonians 5:16-18) Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
I was trying to share gospel to a people. I do share gospel to him but he refuse to become a christian simply because christian community in his place give a bad testimony. He told me that it was christian who cheat him; it was christian who gamble and debt badly. Though christian is only human being and subject to doing wrong things, christian were judged with higher expectation compare to non christian. There are no perfect man in the world, everybody is sinning. However, as a christian, we have to live a faithful life or we are condemned. Moreover, the name of Jesus is condemned and block people to become a christian. That is why it is hard to tell people I am a christian. It is like setting higher discipline level for myself and open for condemnation. I hope I am not a hinder for people to become a christian. I hope people remember me as a christian and say “Jesus Christ and Christianity is not bad.” when I die.(John 8:1-11) But Jesus went to the Mount of Olives. At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group and said to Jesus, "Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?" They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him. But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, "If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone at her." Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground. At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. Jesus straightened up and asked her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?" "No one, sir," she said. "Then neither do I condemn you," Jesus declared. "Go now and leave your life of sin."
I work in city. Because of long public holiday, I went back my home town where I was grew up for 4 days. Life in my hometown was wonderful. I do not need to worry about anything. No bill to pay, no traffic jam, no need to prepare or buy food. Everything is just in place and well organize by my parents. I am like a prince in my parents home. There are smiley faces from my family member for the whole day. Everybody is taking full care of others. We are sharing everything including tear and joy.Every morning, we just start working in my father shop. We have breakfast, lunch and dinner together. During evening, everybody relaxing in the living room to watch TV programme together. Only I realize that I do not watch TV at all for the time I stay in city. After spending so many energy watching TV programme, we dine out and enjoy the wonderful food and atmosphere. For me, it is like the representation of heaven and earth. Heaven is our original home. We are working very hard on earth. At the end of the day, we will go back home.(John 14:1-4) "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms; if it were not so, I would have told you. I am going there to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going."
