When no one is looking

According to the title “When no one is looking”, what is my life is no one is looking? My office seat is at the corner. My monitor is facing the window. No one is looking at my monitor. I am free to do whatever with the Internet connection on. In the office with the company PC, I suppose to do my programming. What if I go chatting, browsing? “It is alright.”, Mr S speaking in a familiar voice. His voice is comfortable and soft. Meanwhile, another fellow Mr G stands firmly and quietly behind me. Mr G, if I do not speak to him, he will keep quiet. This is 2 fellows accompany me for my life. I like Mr G better. Sometimes Mr S speak too many until I ignore Mr G. But most of the time I like to speak to Mr G. His word is more valuable and firm. Mr S words always nice to listen to but leads to something wrong. This time, I start to talk to Mr G, “I am tired, I need a break.”. “Mr Yap, you know what you suppose to do.” “Alright!”, I said. Mr S is quite quiet nowadays because I tends to ignore him. Below is a conversation between Mr G and Mr S.

(Job 1:8-12) Then the LORD said to Satan, "Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil." "Does Job fear God for nothing?" Satan replied. "Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. But stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face." The LORD said to Satan, "Very well, then, everything he has is in your hands, but on the man himself do not lay a finger." Then Satan went out from the presence of the LORD.

What a boosting God? However, I am a sinner. God is not boosting on me. God is forgiving me all day long. Back to the title, there will never no one looking. All the time, 2 fellows are always looking. One to tempt and accuse. One to love and forgive.

Mouth

I am a sinner. My mouth is especially destructive. The words come out of my mouth is always offensive and hurting. I like to point out people error with offensive words. That is really bad. I cannot control my mouth, it keeps speaking destructive languages. From year to year, I hurt a lot of people with my mouth except my parents. My parents will correct my bad language with authority and love. I feel very sorry to the people that I hurt though I am not means to do that. From year to year, I start learning to keep my mouth shut. I do not want to hurt people around me any more. Then, I learn to filter whatever I want to say. I want to take control of my mouth from bad languages. I end up speaking too slow. People sometimes loss patient waiting for my response. “Fast response will hurt you, man.” Things change, though not completely. Now the outcome of my mouth contains some constructive words. I do speak constructive words, from my personal statistic, it may come out once a year. Too bad.

(Proverbs 11:9-12)

With his mouth the godless destroys his neighbor,
but through knowledge the righteous escape.

When the righteous prosper, the city rejoices;
when the wicked perish, there are shouts of joy.

Through the blessing of the upright a city is exalted,
but by the mouth of the wicked it is destroyed.

A man who lacks judgment derides his neighbor,
but a man of understanding holds his tongue.

Personal Financial Planning

As a christian, the first thing I do when I receive my salary from my employer is set aside 10% of it to God. We called it tithe. It is neither expenses nor offering. It is not expense in church to gain people favor. It is not offering to church or God to gain God favor neither. Tithe is belonged to God. It is simply belonged to Him. Why it is belong to Him? Actually, everything on earth is God creation. It is His belonging. He bless us on the work of our hand. And command us to give back 10% of our production back to Him. If we don't, it is stealing.

(Leviticus 27:30) A tithe of everything from the land, whether grain from the soil or fruit from the trees, belongs to the LORD; it is holy to the LORD.

Isaiah 41:10

Terrorist Attack

Everybody know what happened in London couple of day ago. London is under terrorist attack. What is our response as a christian? It is loss of life. People are lossing their love one. If somebody have a sword and kill my father in front of me, what is my response? Am I too afraid and run away? Am I take up another sword and kill the murderer, replace his title as a murderer? What is your response as a person, as a son?

Let's make it clear. I will not kill what so ever. I do not dare to do that. I will not do that. I must not do that. God say it is not the right thing to do. The first principle is I am not killing anyone.

Should I run away? No, the murder already kill my father, he is likely to kill my mother soon. I am to defense my mother. I think the murderer is not going to repent because he is coming to kill again. I am going to defense by take away his ability to attack not by taking away his life, may be just his hand or what so ever.

As a conclusion, if people offence me, first thing is to check whether the people is repent. No choice I have to forgive if the people repent, since I am not too good compare to the people. If not, I am going to defense by disarm the people without taking his life.

Am I right this way?

(Acts 7:23-28) "When Moses was forty years old, he decided to visit his fellow Israelites. He saw one of them being mistreated by an Egyptian, so he went to his defense and avenged him by killing the Egyptian. Moses thought that his own people would realize that God was using him to rescue them, but they did not. The next day Moses came upon two Israelites who were fighting. He tried to reconcile them by saying, `Men, you are brothers; why do you want to hurt each other?" But the man who was mistreating the other pushed Moses aside and said, "Who made you ruler and judge over us? Do you want to kill me as you killed the Egyptian yesterday?"

Fire Report

Yesterday, I take my sister to her friend house. I pass by a residential area. We saw some smoke and orange color in an apartment. I am not sure isn't a fire. We decided to report to nearby fire station. We went to the fire station and make the report. The fireman immediately go to the place and take a look. We went to the place before the fireman and found it is not a fire. There was smoke came from nowhere and the orange color is actually the light of the apartment. I feel guilty to report false fire. Then we went. On the way, we saw the fire trunk rushing to the reported place. Shame on me. I mess out the sequence. I should had investigate the place before report the fire. Feel guilty but salute the responsible fireman. Honor!

(Ezekiel 33:1-6) The word of the LORD came to me: "Son of man, speak to your countrymen and say to them: 'When I bring the sword against a land, and the people of the land choose one of their men and make him their watchman, and he sees the sword coming against the land and blows the trumpet to warn the people, then if anyone hears the trumpet but does not take warning and the sword comes and takes his life, his blood will be on his own head. Since he heard the sound of the trumpet but did not take warning, his blood will be on his own head. If he had taken warning, he would have saved himself. But if the watchman sees the sword coming and does not blow the trumpet to warn the people and the sword comes and takes the life of one of them, that man will be taken away because of his sin, but I will hold the watchman accountable for his blood."

Tireness

Always, I feel very tire of life. I guess I am lack of vitamin M (money). But it is not, if my bank balance is positively different from what I have now, my life basically still the same. I don't think my attitude will change with my bank balance. So do my mind, it will not rest simply because bank balance increase. It will be the same. Then what is the cause of my tireness?

(Matthew 4:4) Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.

Then I start to spend more time to read bible. It is just like reading story book, telling me a lot of things but it does not get rid of my tireness too.

(Matthew 11:28) "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

How?