A Leader and A Follower

(1 Samuel 14:6-14) Jonathan said to his young armor-bearer, "Come, let's go over to the outpost of those uncircumcised fellows. Perhaps the LORD will act in our behalf. Nothing can hinder the LORD from saving, whether by many or by few."

"Do all that you have in mind," his armor-bearer said. "Go ahead; I am with you heart and soul."

Jonathan said, "Come, then; we will cross over toward the men and let them see us. If they say to us, 'Wait there until we come to you,' we will stay where we are and not go up to them. But if they say, 'Come up to us,' we will climb up, because that will be our sign that the LORD has given them into our hands."

So both of them showed themselves to the Philistine outpost. "Look!" said the Philistines. "The Hebrews are crawling out of the holes they were hiding in." The men of the outpost shouted to Jonathan and his armor-bearer, "Come up to us and we'll teach you a lesson." So Jonathan said to his armor-bearer, "Climb up after me; the LORD has given them into the hand of Israel."

Jonathan climbed up, using his hands and feet, with his armor-bearer right behind him. The Philistines fell before Jonathan, and his armor-bearer followed and killed behind him. In that first attack Jonathan and his armor-bearer killed some twenty men in an area of about half an acre.

My new boss is very open-minded. He will ask his staff opinion before he makes some decision. I am happy with his character on this. He did share, some of his staff have different opinion against his. He did asked my opinion on this.

I think bible teach us to follow our appointed leader whatever he want to do as long as not against God's will. Like Jonathan and his armor bearer, Jonathan asked his armor bearer to fight against 20 people with him. The armor bearer definitely know that is not funny to fight 20 people together with his leader alone. But he choose to follow. And they killed all of them.

I think we must follow our leader instruction even though we don't think that is a good idea at all. I believe leader appointed with some reason not by chance. Am I right?

Flood hit my home

Last Sunday night, my sister told me flood hit our hometown as I am away working in Kuala Lumpur. I was so nervous and start pray a short prayer to God after a long period of prayerless life.

Then I called my boss and apply 2 days of no pay leave. I rush back next morning. The normal road back to my hometown was block due to flooded. Luckily there is an alternative route going through jungle and small villages. A lot of flooded area along the route. Though I know my father's shop hasn't affected.

My father's shop is more than 40 years old. The wooden shop went through fire and flood. In short, it can collapse anytime. In addition, the land below the shop can slide anytime too.

I arrive home in the next morning and start to move goods from the shop. Thanks God that the sky is clear for 2 days. There are only 3 males moving the goods, my father, my uncle and myself. The work is hard but it is not stressful and in fact we are so happy to gather together as a family and work together - my father, my mother, my uncle, my girlfriend, three of my sister and myself.

My parents are so happy having us come back to help. They feel grateful and release after 17 years in fear working in the old wooden shop. God really turn bad thing into good.

New Job

It is one month working for a new job. I think this is a right time to review of the new job. In my previous job, I go in to office and start my work as doing programming and deploy to the server. That's it. Without meeting, without talking sometime or most of the time. In this new job, suddenly a lot of new job functions come in:

1. Schedule meeting
2. Prepare documentation
3. Plan project schedule
4. Review project
5. Study project requirement
6. Brainstorming
7. Conduct training
8. Doing programming

So many new stuff need to be done rightly suddenly. I need to schedule my weekly or even monthly time to prioritize my task compare to day in and day out of my previous job. I think it is good and hope to success in doing all this too.

Corporate Ladder

I have a talk with my boss. He present me a corporate ladder. I am required to commit. I think this happen to most of the corporate worker. In Christian philosophy, partly committed equivalent to not committed. I am a bit confused. I seem confused on most of the matter of my life.

My spiritual walk is not strong and I feel dry out. Anyway, I am going to church tomorrow and hope to refresh myself. I am not praying at all to be honest. My mind is full of work related matter. I am reading technical book instead of spiritual book most of the time. However, daily bible reading do remind me of Jesus. I am reading Mark at this moment and Peter is denying Jesus. I hope I will not deny Jesus but I am pulled away from him time by time.

People around seldom talk about Jesus unless they are ordered to do so. The atmosphere is blocking people from talking about Jesus. People interprets as hypocrite when other talk about Jesus. I am not sure but I feel this way. So I talk about my faith here and remind myself as Jesus is my Lord here.

I am out of topic, but I think it is okay since this blog means to be my spiritual journal rather than christian article publishing. God bless you, my fellow reader.

The difference between Christian and non-Christian

How to differentiate a person as a Christian or non-Christian? You should ask a single question. What you be after you die? Some will answer, "“Heaven"”. Some say, "“Don't know."” Some say, "“Doesn't matter."” Some say, "“No such thing. Life will cease after death."” Some say, "“Hell is not bad." Some answered, "This doesn't bother me at all."”

I found this is the foundation of the purpose of life. If you do not know what you be after you die, you will neither know what are you actually doing with your life. But anyhow, you life just molded by your environment. If you doesn't bother this at all, you will not bother what you does with your life too. If you think life will cease after death, you will live your life on your own "“wonderful"” way. If you think hell is not too bad, after all there are lot of friends going together, then that is really too bad.

What if you say, "“Jesus is going to bring me to heaven."”? Then you will be bombarded with some amount of questions like "“Are you sure heaven is good? Are you sure Jesus can bring you to heaven? Are you sure there is a heaven? Are you sure about this idea? What if this is false? What if I want to kill you right now if you continue to declare this idea?"

Haha, since all of us not sure about what will happen after death, why not belief this Jesus, after all we all going to die soon after. For me, the contract is I belief Jesus can bring me to heaven, then he will bring me to heaven. This is valid without any terms and conditions. Though there are extra bonus come after certain terms and conditions. You will be under constant exposure to gain these extra bonus after you sign the basic contract. Which is good I think.